Wednesday, 20 April 2016

Planning Life After University

Fastly approaching the end of university, I have started to debate with myself about what my next step is. For a while I thought about doing a master but I don't want to rush into it and regret doing it in a few years time if I wanted to do a different masters.

Life in general seems so planned for people, you feel pressured not necessarily by people but by life to go straight from university into a graduate job and just never look back. This is fine for some people, maybe even homely and welcoming to them, but it just isn't me. 

I just don't feel like I am cut out for an office job, I want a creative job where I will be active. Doing something that I love. This is what made me really start to think about my future and more than just my future furniture and house (yup I'm one of those people) and more into what I want to do. I realised I had never come up with a set idea, obviously an artist has always been the general idea, but I needed to expand on this.

photo of some of my work

From this I planned and planned thinking about my future, honestly it is exhausting thinking about this so much. I feel now is the time to tell you something you don't know. Back in the summer last year my grandad died and it stopped me being able to think about death, my artwork has always had a  big focus on death in it and I just couldn't bring myself to think about death for months. I still haven't finished Allegiant (the last divergent book, as I knew the ending and couldn't face it).

I had to think of a different type of art to make, and I went into developing my doodles, I have always done doodles since I can remember. History notebooks with dueling snails and walking talking vegetables. My doodles became alive, I developed my doodles into characters, as cute as possible and then I took a huge step.

I have always been very self critical of my own work and scared of other people being the same, so it was massive when I decided to sell prints of my illustrations at a Handmade Fair at my university. I did really well and people seemed to like my work (I wasn't there for most of it, but my boyfriend manned my stand and sold a fair amount). 

This gave me the confidence to continue with my characters and develop them more. An even bigger step came next, when I saw an advert around uni advertising about a pop up shop the uni was doing. I applied with my characters, had an interview and was selected. There was a few months till the shop, I spent a lot of this time making cards, hand-drawn cards. During this time I started to do artwork about death again, though it was video based and completely separate from my characters. 

I found myself really loving drawing and coming up with new card designs (new characters), this is what I wanted to do, is what I found myself thinking. I started to research and found there are a few card companies that accept submissions but most are independent companies. This started me looking into creating my own company. This was something I found that I was passionate about much more than any job I had looked at. 

Not to conclude as there never is an end in life and progression in it, but I guess what I'm saying is that you should do something that you are passionate about and not just for money or to have a job. You should do what you love and not to worry if you grow up not knowing what you want to do with your life. Give it time, I spent most of my time at university still not knowing what I wanted to be when I grew up. I'm not saying life will be easy, as I'm sure just finding a random job would be a lot easier than what I want but I know that I have to try and live my dream. Even if it doesn't work out, at least I will know I tried. 

No regrets in life is how you should live.

Thank you for reading this mega long post, I hope it has helped you and dare I say maybe even inspired one of you, if I am lucky. 



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ps. sorry about the long delay in posts, I have been trying to set up my business. Please check out my etsy shop. I love my little characters and hope you do too.


Wednesday, 2 March 2016

February Favourites

So this month Ive managed to do my favourites early-ish. This month have gone by rather slowly, though there has been far too much Jeremy Kyle and Maury watching. Does anyone else have these on in the background when doing work? 

This month has been rather frustrating my internet has been down for most of the most, and my page views have dropped so low. I know my blog isn't as great as I want but I don't have the time or technical know how to make it as good as I want. I look at other peoples blogs and want to just delete mine but I know I can't be the only one who feels this. I love my blog though, hating it and loving it at the same time. I love posting and sharing my thoughts, but trying to get people to look at my blog is the hard part I hate. I'm not saying I want thousands of people to find my blog, but sometimes it feels so hard trying to find ways for people to know about your blog. I have decided for March I am not going to look at page views but just focus on my posts, if I ever find out the secret I will let you know.

Kiko Velvet Touch Blush 02 - I love this shade of blusher and I've found that this cream blusher can be blended really easily, I find some aren't very blendable.

Dove Summer Glow Lotion - I love this body lotion and it has given be a very light tan, I don't look tanned I know but I don't look as pale as I usually do around this time of year.

The Body Shop All in One Insta blur - This is fastly becoming my favourite primer, along with Benefits, this one is more in my price range. 

Spectrum Blusher Blush - From this months Birchbox, I love this brush so much, it is really soft and applies make up really well. I know this can be purchased off Birchbox but not sure where else sells it. There is a whole range of brushes and they are really well priced.

Necklace Accessorise - I love this necklace, it sits on your collar bone really nicely and was a bargain as was in the 70% sale, no longer in stores.

All My Friends Are Dead and 100 Ghosts - I love both of these books so much, I have wanted them both forever but finally I gave it and bought them both. I want to make books like these myself when I finish university.

Whats your favourites for this month?